A Stubborn One

I suddenly came to realise how stubborn I actually am. I never learn from mistakes, and I tend to make the same mistakes for twice. Why am I so stubborn in making the same mistakes again and again, why just couldn't I learn from the mistake? Why on earth has people as silly as I am? When only I will learn from the past? Seems like it takes forever to convince myself I'm such a loser, in fact I am which I only realised it not too long ago. If that's the case, I will never success, not to think of any bits about the future. If I'm forever that indecisive and forever that lack of confidence, then I am forever a loser. If I don't change, if I don't move, if I stick to what I am, what I was, I will be forever the same me which is how and what I am at this moment. If indecisive is what brings me down, if lack of confidence is what push me aside, then I should just bang on the wall. No, hitting the wall isn't enough, that doesn't help. Then then, then.. why it takes forever for me to learn and get over my weakness which is so clear right in front for me. Dammit. Heart beeping faster, fire burning hot inside, because I'm mad at myself.

Forseen and Unforeseen

• This month definitely wouldn't be happening anymore;
• This space will turn into cold and eerie place pretty soon, or who knows it'll be so right after this one;
• Post with only blabber, no photo of my happening life, no photo of food - this saves complains;
  
• Emotional wave with the mixture of moody and frustrations, with the hint of torturous, suffering and suffocation;
• Higher refreshing rate of Facebook and blogspot, as if anyone updates every hour.
  
• Probably lower frequency of vacuuming the room? or maybe not, because this kills time, and burns calories. Lol!;
  
• Will be so busy right after 20th. How sarcastic it is, shouldn't I busier beforehand? ;
• Stop stocking in the kitchen, three weeks' time to spring cleaning the food;    

• Unforeseen direction and path after this; That's it.
  

There are times come to think of this silly question lately, that everyone knows only the lazy ass and coward who doesn't put in effort would ask as such - How nice it is if there's a free flow of vitamin M? This thought only comes from useless person so I'm not going to be one, but pardon me for a moment, blame me for having more material desire lately.

If I can get over my indecisive, my world goes rounder with lesser corners and lesser junctions. Lol. It saves the people around me from the overwhelming nagging. Only if I manage to, I wonder when.
 
Experienced being a santa claus yesterday, cooked a whole big pot of bee koh moi and it's impossible to finish without the help of more tummies.

Very unstructured. Byebye.

To end the month..

There was this Deeparaya Open House organised by MYSUN.. two weeks ago. It is always so nice to attend such events because this is when we can catch up with all the friends no matter close ones or it's just hi-bye friends. Whenever there is gathering for Malaysian, there is always food - I think this is the most basic thing to ask for. :p

Sadly, this is also the last event of the year. :[

Happy birthday Shee Ling!! :) Okay, I don't think SheeLing reads this anyway. Hehehe.

A random one.. on Khai Chi's graduation day with her lomo camera :)

October October....... is coming to an end. Everyone knows what and how's next month gonna be.

Spring in Canberra

Sorry for this belated Canberra post, it's never been forgotten. :)

Me and Hua headed down to Canberra during the Spring break 3 weeks ago. People always says that Canberra is sooooo boring but it's sooooo not true for me, I'm used to the slow and laid-back lifestyle back in Newy. Ohhh.. I like the city! Civic :) Small and organised, and.. peaceful, cool!

We had a walk in ANU after a yummy lunch at Tosolinis. I had risotto but I think Hua's pasta is the best!! It was so goooood. Bee, you should go for the pasta next time! xD

Continue with the walk at Australian National Botanic Gardens just behind ANU.
And... it rained. :/

The night we had a pleasant dinner with Bee's friends and we laughed a lot! They are so hilarious, so cute :) Hehe. Bee, your chicken marsala is so thumbs up! Love it :D

The next day...

Floriade @ Canberra

Practically saying we skipped dinner that night and we had supper with mac n' cheese, chips, mooncakes. We were so kaypo browsing through lots of blogs, of people that we don't know at all. LOL.

 

A fruit flan for breakfast before leaving Canberra. Thanks Bee, I love this fruit flan! I wish I could have some now :)

 

We didn't go to the Parliament House!! I heard it's a must to go but we, being the special ones, didn't go. Buwahhahah. Or maybe this could be the reason to visit Canberra again one day. =p

Thanks for the stay my bee ❤ xoxo

How nice if I was there..

My ah ma's 94. 

 

There are so many of them. Ah ma with broad smile. Everyone looks good. Overloaded with yummy food. So warm so happy.

but




I wasn't there...................... :(

The return of Khai Chi

A mini gathering at our house before Khai Chi's big day, finally we met up after 3 months!

❤ Khai Chi's BIG DAY! ❤

 

❤ Us at Sydney Opera House ❤

 

❤ Khai Chi and me ❤

 

❤ Congratulations Khai Chi ❤

the holder of Bachelor of Music