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Monday, November 2, 2009
A Stubborn One
I suddenly came to realise how stubborn I actually am. I never learn from mistakes, and I tend to make the same mistakes for twice. Why am I so stubborn in making the same mistakes again and again, why just couldn't I learn from the mistake? Why on earth has people as silly as I am? When only I will learn from the past? Seems like it takes forever to convince myself I'm such a loser, in fact I am which I only realised it not too long ago. If that's the case, I will never success, not to think of any bits about the future. If I'm forever that indecisive and forever that lack of confidence, then I am forever a loser. If I don't change, if I don't move, if I stick to what I am, what I was, I will be forever the same me which is how and what I am at this moment. If indecisive is what brings me down, if lack of confidence is what push me aside, then I should just bang on the wall. No, hitting the wall isn't enough, that doesn't help. Then then, then.. why it takes forever for me to learn and get over my weakness which is so clear right in front for me. Dammit. Heart beeping faster, fire burning hot inside, because I'm mad at myself.
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4 little joe(s) on "A Stubborn One"
Chill my Joe. We all are stubborn to a certain extent and also depending on which subject matter. Sometimes we benefit from our own stubbornness (: Don't be too hard on yourself. I despise myself for being so indecisive too but we are indecisive because we want to make sure we have thought of all the possible outcomes of a decision and do not want to regret over the decision made. My Joe, focus on your studies now. After the exams, clear your mind and eventually you will be able to see the path better. Cheer up my Joe. You are one fantabulous person.
That's true on what you are saying but sometimes I just can't help myself for being so unconfident, and I can't endure myself for being such an indecisive person. But anyway, yeah things will get over. Thanks my bee, somehow your words reflect what's in my mind. :) xoxo and good luck in your exams!
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wow eric tan you still got lalu sini one ah! miracle!
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